“And I think that’s part of why I tried to write this essay, is because to write sentences from my head now, that are just all meaning, and little-to-no inventive language, feels so terrifying and clumsy. I wanted to make sure I could still write something engaging that didn’t require me to string together surprising words. In that mode of writing, where I was just always trying to surprise myself with the words I’d pull together, I feel there is a huge amount of chance.” At Hobart, Amelia Gray and Jac Jemc talk about luck, drinks, and more.
The shorter answer to your question, the answer that doesn’t make my mind cramp up trying to explain it, is that I like being confused and I like being scared – they go hand in hand. But I think ultimately I’m a pretty positive person who is stable enough to enjoy being scared because I have the faith that nothing can go so terribly wrong that I couldn’t recover. I’ve always really loved reading scary stories and watching well-made horror movies, and not too long ago an interviewer told me there was spooky quality to my writing, and I thought, “Yes! You’re right!” It’s always been there, I think. I’m just going at it at more directly this time.